Blessed

hahaha

2007-11-07T19:08:37Z

me and my mommy haha...going out.
6 street baby.

updateage

2007-11-05T04:11:09Z

ok its november already
and halloween was cool
i went trick or treating
ahahaha
and new things are good im realizing.
ty fo the flowers :)

to : you know who you are

2007-10-27T23:12:04Z

whenever your ready ill be waiting for you :)

its almost halloween

2007-10-25T22:28:55Z

thats me and kelli rose doing our pumpkins. but the 2nd picture is my bizzatch.
anyways. tonights my aunts bday. im going to the drafthouse to see something.
i dont know what tho. and its exciting...
and i have a new crush that im excited about.
thats all the new news so far

updating

2007-10-23T03:50:35Z

just a quick update...
i last posted on thursday of last week and its now monday.
Friday was nothing speciall.. i went to school..went to work...
saturday i worked a double so i was there all day...paid my first phone bill
YES!
and...sunday i worked and got to hang out with a friend.
mmm got high and went to kirby lane<3
queso<3
anddd..todays monday.
i was going to go see the comedian from grandmas boy but i had to work. :|
BUT TOMORROW IS FALLOUTBOY <333333333333333333333333
im so excited
thanks so much to jared
!!!!
aannd hallowweeenns coming up soon. fer rizzle.
anyways ill update with tons of pictures

good news

2007-10-18T21:20:19Z

i got a 95 and a 90 on my math test
thank you God
:D

the 17th.

2007-10-18T01:28:48Z

Today has its significance. im not going to say but im really scared about the possibilites today. im hoping things will work them selves out. Anyways. I had a great day. Of course school was good. my teachers the coolest. all the way ...took an open book test in medical terminology. coolest class. Then theres like a gay guy in my class his names jacob and hes a really tall mexican. He has hair extensions and nails and a big funny purse. but we gave him a ride home today hes so funny. it might become a ritual. anyways i ate pizza and probably call it a night.
also i had a great sigh of relief. i wont make that mistake again.

britdizzle @ 2007-10-17T20:15:00

2007-10-18T01:25:20Z

4 Years ago:

1.) How old were you?:
17.

2.) Where did you go to school?:
Smithson Valley

3) Where did you work?:
i dont think i had a job

4.) Where did you live?:
with my mom in the apartments in canyon lake

5.) Where did you hang out?
just with brittany and sarah we did ninth hour

6.) Did you wear glasses?
only the big white ones

7.) Who was your best friend?
Brittany bynum

8.) How many tattoos did you have?:
none

9.) How many piercings did you have?:
i did have my lip and ears but i had to take it out, it closed

10.) What car did you drive?:
The Talon

11.) Had you been to a real party?
nope

12.) Had You had your heart broken?:
the first heartbroken happened that year

13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorce
i was single at the beginning and then dated for like the next 4 years of my life

-------------3 years ago----------

1.) How old were you?:
18

2.) Where did you go to school?
smithson valley still.

3.) Where did you work?
Papa docks- waitressing

4.) Where did you live?
i moved in with Coreys family.

5.) Where did you hang out?:
with corey, we did a lot of hanging out at papadocks and skateparks.

6.) Did you wear glasses?:
still the big white sunglasses..me and kassandra

7.) Who were your best friend(s):
Kassandra

8.) How many tattoos did you have?
Still none.

9.) How many piercing did you have?
belly button...and lip again but took it out for last time.

11) Had your heart broken?:
yeah before but i also broke 2 hearts..thats a bummer too

12.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?:
dating then single for 3 months then taken again

--------------------Today--------------------

1.) How old are you?:
21

2.) Where do you work?:
Chedddars

3.) Where do you live?:
with my family going to college

4.) Do you wear glasses?:
just my ones from aeropostale

5) Who are your close friends?
megan. and heather

6.) Do you talk to your old friends?:
I talk to chelsea and britt and sarah everynow n then

7.) How many piercing do you have?:
just my bellly and ears

8.) How many tattoos?
nooone

9.) What kind of car do you have?:
none..thats a bummer

10.) Has your heart been broken?
just happened.

11.)Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Seperated?:
single

REPOST AS "HOW MUCH HAVE YOU CHANGED IN 6 YEARS

missing someone

2007-10-16T20:11:53Z

i really miss you today johnny.
its not fair that ive been made to be the bad guy when im not at all.
i wish you would wake up and smell the coffee..that i love you.

i know your still in jail right now but im really hurt..and i bet you dont even care.
i hope you do. i pray everyday for you to realize this.

lmfao.

2007-10-15T05:24:54Z

heres a pic of me corey sarah and calvin like back in 2005. hahaha look at us..geez.
i love it.

otherwise i didnt feel so good. i called into work and i wonder if im fired.hmm. and i went and hung out with mason. that guy is crazy i dunno if ima hang out with him anymore. but we got high and went to kirby lane. gosh they have good queso. mmmmm. and thats all.

Saturday

2007-10-14T04:56:18Z

So today was a good day with the family. i gripped all day about going to work and it wasnt so bad. im pretty tired though. I made some good money tonight and all the glory went to God first. Thats the way it needs to be. Praise reports go to God first then to other people. i tend to ignore him and go to someone like family and tell them the good news or vice versa, like when in need i go to someone physical rather then him when he can solve everything...
so it was a good day. im still thanking God for that car that hes going to give me free and brand new.

on the other note heres something to do.

1. Real name: Brittney mae
2. Like it ?: love it.
3. Single or taken?: single
4. Zodiac sign: scorpio baby
5. Male or female: femalizzle. fer shizzle.
6. Elementary school: Live oak
7. Middle: christian school
8. High school: smithson valley. wooo
9. Eye color: dark brown...maybe even black?
10. Hair color: a lot.
15. Are you a health freak: not at all.
16. Height: 5’2
17. Do you have a crush on someone: im kinda like in love ya know?
18. Do you like yourself: i frreakin love myself.
19. Piercings: ears and navel...
20. Tattoos: none.
21. Righty or lefty: lefteys are where its at.

FIRSTS-
22. First surgery: none?
23. First piercings: ears
24. First real best friend: moo.
26. First sport:. volleyball.
27. First pet: hootie. my one and only<3
28. First vacation: south padre? geez i cant remember.
30. First crush: probably john heredia. hahahha shhhhh

CURRENTLY-
49. Eating: mcdonalds.
50. Drinking: drpepper
51. About to: go to sleep
52. Listening to: fabolous
53. Waiting for: me to finish this
54. Wearing: shorts and a teeshiiirt
56. Want to get married to: i did.
67. Careers in mind: nurse baby.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

68. Lips or eyes: lips are pretty important.
69. Hugs or kisses: kisses..with good breath
70. Shorter or taller: well they should be taller then me
71. Tan skinned or light skin: tanned
72. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous
73. Dark or light hair: blonde
74. Muscular or normal: in the middle
75. Hook-up or relationship: relationships.
76. Similar to you or different: both?

HAVE YOU EVER-
78. Kissed a stranger: yes
80. Broken a bone: nope
81. Climbed up a tree: yeah and i fell.........
82. Broke someones heart: yeah and thats sad
83. Turned someone down: yeah
84. Liked a friend as more than a friend: yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN-
86. Yourself: all the way
89. Santa Claus: i wish he was real
90. Kiss on the first date: no
91. Angels: yessss

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY-
92. Is there one or more people you want to be with right now?
only one really

93. Do you hang out with these people/person?
no. he doenst like me anymore

94. Are you cool?
to the fullest amount

LASTS-
95. Text message: tooo megan?

96. Recieved call: let me check, jordan

98. Comment on myspace: jacob

99. Missed Call: a unknown number

100. Person you hung out with: lauren

101. You hugged: hm....
103. You talked to: my granny

104. You slapped: laurens butt

105. Said I love you to: my granny.

a new start

2007-10-11T17:52:30Z

a new start again.
so heres a long update again.
first jonathon broke up with me. which thats a shame for him because im going to make something great out of myself and hes missing out. although i do wish him the best in his life. its just sad having to say bye to my best friend. anyways on to a better subject. im changing my major to surgical tech and im so excited about it. 17/hr baby!!!! wooo anyways i got a break from work but i have to work tonight. im totally not excited about it.

tuesday

2007-10-03T02:17:47Z

picture of me and my mommy going to 6th street.
aw. and gosh today was so long. im so tired.
but...the picture was to big. so ill have to resize it later.
peace

Long day.

2007-10-02T03:30:07Z

so after school i had to work. Gosh im so tired, i dont know how i will have the strength to make it on like this. But only with Gods help. It was slow and i didnt make any money, plus one of my fellow workers pissed me off. So being that i was pissed off i walked home to walk off the anger. Then me and my aunt went to taco bell. mmm.
anyways..
heres something i found to do...

BEST
[1.] Female friend: megan
[2.] Cousin: Lauren
[3.] Thing to do: smoke im only being honest.
[4.] Time of Day: night time.
[5.] Day of the week: ..pfft. ..none.
[6.] Food: steak. mmmmmmm

LAST
[1.] Person who called you: my grandma.
[2.] Person you called: megan.
[3.] Myspace Message: preston.
[4.] Time you cried: probably like 2 days ago when i found out johnny hates me

CURRENTLY
[1.] What are you doing now: this survey
[2.] What are you wearing right now: black capris and a pink shirt
[3.] Better than yesterday: hmm, neither were ideal.

TOMORROW
[1.] Is: gonna be long
[2.] Plans: school and work. never any fun
[3.] Dislikes about tomorrow?: how busy I am
[1.] Missing: jonathon
[2.] Mood: drained
[3.] Wanting: jonathon

TRUE OR FALSE
[I am a cuddler]
only with johnny and then we turn over to go to sleep

[I am a morning person]
false...

[I am a perfectionist]
never..only when it comes to how i look.

[I am a only child]
heh, to bad i have like 3 older brothers.

[I am currently in pajamas]
fact

[I am shy with the opposite gender]
no reason to be i have a boyfriend.

[I like country music]
only rascall flatts

[I enjoy talking on the phone]
i do and txting

[I have a hidden talent]
fals.

[I have or had broken a bone]
nop

[I have changed a lot over the past year]
theres a fair amount of truth in this

[I have had a major surgery]
i had stitches?

TODAY
1. Talk to a boy/girl you like? nop :(
2. Learn anything new? clara barton founded the red cross
3. Talk to an ex? nop
4. Miss someone? johnny
5. Laid in your bed: well i sleep on a couch?

LAST PERSON WHO..
6. Made you cry? .....its complicated
7. You went to the movies with? a friend
8. You showered with? myself.
9. Made you laugh? the mexicans @ work who only speak spanish
10. Said they loved you? my grandma. haha i love her too

First day

2007-10-01T20:10:52Z

So today was my first day of college.
its freakin so cool to say that because half the people i know will never know that feeling. And thats sad. It really makes you feel like your accomplishing something. Im sure there will be days when my friends go out partying and i wont be able to because i have to study for a test or something of the sort, but hey in a couple years theyll still be doing the same thing and ill be baaaaaaaalllllllliiiiinnnn. thats whats up. Driving the infinti and rockin the baller shiizz. Anyways my first class was medical terminology. which will be cool ill learn some neat things, my teachers way cool and theres only like 8 students in the class. gosh thats so much better then having 30 or 40. Anyways theres this gay guy whois name is jacob. And he has the white tip nails and big purse lmfao. im not judging at all its just funny. hahehe. anyways im so tired. i couldnt sleep last night because all i could worry about was jonathon. I know things will work out. If i did my calculations right he'll get my letter tonight and see that i wasnt not cheating. Annnd i have work in 2 hours. I get paid...nice. And wednesday im going to get a bank account so i can start saving and quit spending. thats the plan.
Anyways much love.

survey time

2007-10-01T04:21:32Z

1. What are your opinions on ryan sheckler?
whois that?

2. What are you wearing?
pajamasssss.

3. Are you single?
im not sure but im going with no.

4. Do you want to be single?
nop not at all

5. Why?
because i enjoy his company and waking up and seeing his beautiful face

6. Do you like 50 cent?
fershizzle

7. Are you sick?
no but my legs are sore

8. Are you still in school?
pfft. i start college tomorrow. holler

9. Do you have a twin?
maybe my mom?

10. What did you do yesterday?
i ......worked.

11. What did you do today?
i........worked some more.

12. What are you worried about?
school tomorrow, jonathon hating me, and my work schedule.

13. What's annoying you right now?
my lips are dry.

15. Whats your favorite drink?
drpepper

16. Do you like card games?
spider soliatre ( thanks to johnny)

18. What is amusing you right now?
hearing my grandmas life story.

19. Whats your favorite sport?
basketball. go spurs go.

21. What sports do you play?
none i cant run a centimeter or i get side cramps.

22. Is the number 30 significant to you?
no and i never wanna be 30 either.

23. Do you like high school?
its just high school what can i say

24. Do you curse a lot?
sorta, its my resolution to cut back. hey im tryyyyying

25. Do you have friends?
new city so not a kit

26. Do you wear rings?
nop

28. What are you doing this weekend?
im..........working

29. Do you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend?
i dunno, i hope so.

30. How long have you been together?
.............

35. Have you ever eaten pizza?
come on.

36. Are you in a foreign language class?
no way this is America we speak English

37. Do you like ramen noodles?
yes only chicken though

39. How many people do you want to fight?
nobody. theyd probably win.

41. When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
dallas. ill never drink yager again.

43. Think of the person you hate the most, why do you hate them?
i dont hate her but im tired of her trying to ruin my life.

45. Does love last forever?
i sure hope so. for my sake.

Just another sunday

2007-10-01T02:13:38Z

Todays johnnys birthday. Hes 20. I know you cant see this johnny but happy birthday. I got a letter from him today. Unfortunatly it was written before all the crap happened and it was so nice. Saying howd we be together forever no matter what happened. Wed get married and have beautiful babies. These are all the things i really want. Sometimes when your a little confused in life you tend to say things that you really dont mean but saying them helps you realize that you DONT in fact mean them. So its a total bummer that things that i said were taken so literal and used against me. Im really hurt. Because i love jonathon more than this whole world.And its just not fair that people would try so hard to tear us apart. In my Joel osteen book it sais no matter how bad hurt you or mistreat you and even lie about you, you mustnt try to take matters in your own hands because then youll make things worse. So heres me praying to God that he'll make things better. I truly hope he does.
Anyway. i worked all day and made no money, but God blessed me with a good and positive attitude today. Which that makes all the difference in the world. ANNNNNND tomorrow is my first day of college im so freakin excited.
Wish me luck !

6 months later

2007-09-30T01:05:50Z

So i just found that i had this journal. And the last time i posted Jonathon had just came home from jail. Well right now as your reading hes back in jail. But my point here is not to bash anyone. My point here is remind myself all what God has done and what God can do. I hope that if anything this journal can be a testimony for myself or for anyone else.

Back in February my boyfriend came home from jail after only being there for a month. We were suppose to get married but because of some family conflicts it didnt happen, but that only means it was the right time or else id be a married woman right now. We were living with his parents at the time but we eventually moved out. his parents and i werent getting along so well and i wanted to move out. As God would have it he opened a home up for us immediatly. His parents were mad saying we re disgracing God and that hed never bless us. We were using their vehicle and they took it away since we werent conforming to their wishes. So there we were carless having to bum rides from other people to get to and from work. Well after keeping our faith we knew God would provide and just two weeks later a girl we lived with told us her dad was selling her moms grand marquee. So we went and talked to him and he said for 150 a month we could have it. We even kept it insured for us so we werent driving around illegal. Now it isnt the prettiest car on the outside but in the inside it was so roomy and we loved it. Plus its a grandma car it kept the cops away. ( psh and God wouldnt bless us?)
God blessed us with much over the next 2 months, but instead of using it for Gods glory we started partying and doing drugs. And shortly after we fell. A whole bunch of crap happened with our roommate, and again jonathons family. But not so much his parents, but with all the stress going on me and jonathon werent getting along so well either, i was so stressed out i broke out in hives i had these red rashes all over my body that just itched. I was freaking out so bad i no idea what the hell was going to happen to us. We had to move out, and i would under no circumstance live with his parents again. Well his parents ( im so thankful for this no matter what the circumstance is with me and his parents) they were very generous and paid the deposit for us to get an apartment. So me, johnny and his brother and his gf moved in. We all were trying to get o nthe right path together. AGain God blessed us with our own apartment and helped johnny get a car. We were even making really good money at work. But again we would take advantage of Gods blessings again, and we began partying even more and harder then we had before. Although i have to step out of this story and say we had some freakin badass times. We threw the bombest parties that were out of this world. Ill never forget them and although it costed us everything...haha well ill never regret them. Ok so back to my story, heres where it went all down hill. Johnny peed dirty. And warrants came out for his arrest. He decided he would just turn himself in and sit his time out. But that meant we had to break our lease. And i was suppose to move with my mom. But jonathon got arrested before any of us planned on it. My mom was moving at the time and wasnt ready for me yet. So i had no where to go and no where to put any of my stuff, i had to quit my job because our car broke right at the same time. Shit goes down all at one time and man did it. I was freaking out i had no idea what to do. All i could do was pray. My neighbors are so badass im so thankful for them they offered to hold all my stuff for as long as i needed them to. My dad who im not that close to called out of the blue and was like how is everything and i told him everything, he came and got me immediatly and took me home with him. I stayed a week with him and then my grandma had called and told me to come stay with her in austin. So i did. A couple days later i got a job, and got enrolled in college. I start in 2 days, im going to start as a medical assistant and only move up from there. I found a good church. And im just taking one day at a time. About a month ago i felt like dieing. I had to do everything all by myself, because johnny was in jail. I was so lonely and depressed. I lost my appetite and didnt eat anything. Because im so little i started losing weight and looking unhealthy. I cried everyday and took sleeping pills so i could just sleep the time away. But A month later things are so turned around. God picked me up from the dirt and really turned my life around. Just like he does everytime. No matter what ive done. Hes always there for me.
I love jonathon no matter what hes done or hasnt done. Hes my best friend, and the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. And the Devil has come to steal that away from us, but with Gods help i pray he'll restore what weve lost and replace it with so much happiness and hope.
Im so thankful to God for the oppertunity to live every day to its fullest.

ok im done.
the end.

married

2007-02-20T06:08:54Z

JOHNNYS HOME!!!!-feb 13th.
im so happy my babys home.

-and im getting married on 4/20.
im the coolest person i know.

and i love him.

Late update

2007-02-06T06:26:24Z

Well its been awhile since my last update. Nothings really changed. Jonathons still in jail. Im improving a little at work. I went shopping today and pretty much spent all my money. The good news is his income tax money will be here no later then the 13th. today being the 6th thats about a week. Then we can get his lawyer paid and shell start doing her magic. I cant wait to see him. We're getting a condo, and are going to fuck everywhere. And we're both still thrilled about getting married.

britdizzle @ 2007-01-26T21:54:00

2007-01-27T03:57:07Z

so i really miss jonathon at this point.
i cant decide if its getting easier and harder
i guess i would say both.
i love him. he loves me.
and i know that.

and the after effects of drugs really suck

Deal today

2007-01-21T02:35:44Z

Being back in canyon lake i got my first deal today
Well my first net deal.
its was a red by-annual. only 8700 $
so i get 500 bucks commission from that.
woooo...
hopefully ill get another tomorrow.

ps i miss my baby.

new update we're hoping for only 2 months.

pray for my jonathon <3

My love

2007-01-19T04:27:36Z

Last night my baby was arrested. i miss him so much.
we're going to get married when he gets out

something fun

2007-01-18T04:10:45Z

65 Things you should want to know about me.

1.) Where were you when the ball dropped for 2007?

In my car in front of jonathons house, while him and his brother popped fireworks.

2.) How did you get the idea for your myspace name?
rap

3.) Do you love anyone?
Jonathon

4.) Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
not that i recall.

7.) What did you do this morning?
cuddled with jonathon

8.) Who are more complicated guys or girls?
girls.

9.) Have you ever done something malicious to someone as a revenge tactic?
i cant remember but probably.

10.) Have you ever cheated on a partner or been the "other woman"?
....

11.) What are the last two digits of your phone number?
i dont currently have a phone

12.) What was the last concert you attended?
falloutboy.

13.) Who was with you?
corey

14.) What is the last movie you watched?
the breaks

15.) What/who do you dislike at the moment?
the police

16.) What food do you crave right now?
burger king

17.) Did you dream last night?
yeah that the cops were looking for me...creepy

18.) What was the last TV show you watched?
the spurs game.

19.) What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
the necklace jonathon bought me

20.) Name someone on your Top 8 who is just like you?
i cant even remember whois on my top 8

21.) What's the last thing you ate/drank?
Life cereal and a dr thunder

24.) Are you on any medication?
no....

25.) What side of the bed do you sleep on?
i slept on the couch

26.) What color shirt are you wearing?
pink

27) What color is your razor?
blue.

28.) What is your favorite frozen treat?
ice cream

29.) How many tattoos/piercings do you have?
my ears and belly

30.) Whats your favorite store?
hollister

31.) Are you thirsty right now?
yep.

32.) Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
yes only to jonathon

33.) Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
jonathon...i miss him so much

34.) What did you do last night?
looked at porn with jonathon and brandon

35.) Do you care what people think about you?
yes and no

36.) Have you ever done something to instigate trouble?
of course

38.) What color are your bedroom walls?
right now white

39.) Do you like giving or getting massages more?
giving and getting

40.) Have you ever snooped around your parents room before?
i suppose

42.) Where do you live?
canyon lake

43.) What is your favorite city in the US/world.?
Austin tx

44.) Who do you have a crush on?
Jonathon

45.) Do you like the person who posted this last?
i love ashley

46.) Do you know their Birthday?
no and thats sad

47.) What is your favorite thing to do on a Friday night?
hang out with jonathon

48.) Do you tend to attract the stalker-type?
no.

49.) What do you smell like right now?
i dunno probably stink

50.) What is your favorite color?
pink

51.) Do you like mustard?
not at all.

52.) What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
trust God.

53.) Would you ever sky dive?
yes sir

54.) What size bed do you sleep on?
futon

55.) Do old people scare you or creep you out?
sometimes. but only sometimes

56.) Have you ever bid for something on ebay?
no im broke

57.) What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?
shes pretty

58.) Do you enjoy giving hugs?
yes.

60.) Do you have any idea how to say 2006 in Swahili?
haha no idea

61.) Do you own any shows on DVD?
dave chappelle

62.) Who is your favorite Friends character?
rachel

63.) Does it annoy you when someone says they'll call but never do?
sometimes, if im waiting on them yeah...

64.) What books, if any, have made you cry?
i don't know.

65.) Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?
nope i love it

it snows.

2007-01-16T22:15:15Z

Today is January 16.

im currently living with my boyfriend at his parents house.
so the search for our own place is on.
My car broke, some cb joint snapped and the wheel fell off.
So the search for a new car is on.
I dont have a phone.
i have to pay the old bill still which is around 600 now.

I guess you could say things just arent going my way.
BUT. im not giving up.

With the help and support of God; friends&family and of course marijuana.

Ps it snowed too.